my report card

Well hello. Remember me? Is anyone still out there? Well regardless, my purpose for blogging was/is to have something for my girls when they're older.....and to remember the memories....and well, for the 2010 grading period so far I get a big fat F. Not just a standard F, but a big fat juicy oozing stinky F full of warts and fungus and gingivitis.

You see 2010 really did start out great...good breath and all. Even after breaking my foot at the end of December (i still need to blog that story), things were looking up. Break schmreak. I was feeling established and loved and at home and accomplished and just all around happy.

Then the bad breath started to lurk. Things were going wrong...not even things that should have made that much of an impact but it's funny how life works. All of the little things were adding up fast and snowballing....and every time I felt hope of things getting better BAM something crappy would happen again.

However in spite of all of this, and without going into all of the boring details (because we know I don't know how to abbreviate......which reminds me of something one of my friends says to me when he wants me to get to the point "nicole - don't elaborate, abbreviate!"), I have gained an incredible amount of self awareness over the past few months. It's like I've kind of relived all of the crazy stages in my life and forced myself to really remember them and think why the F did I do and not do some things.

So girls, in summary, one of the things I want most for you more than anything else is that you are happy with you.....that you don't feel like you need other people to make you truly happy. Once you are in that place, like I am now, you'll realize that the people that you do choose to be in your life are there because they add something extra.....not because you think they fill in the missing pieces.

So somehow this post went from being my typical goofy to serious....but I'm going to just keep it the way it is and save the goofy for tomorrow.....because let me tell you, I have lots of goofy!